It's very simple thing to understand my title, but yet it's a big thing in our lives.  Lately I have faced with a lot of intersection roads, which forced me to take either one.  It's all about choices and how to make decision based upon on the judgment of matters and probably weighing system that we have.  Since each person has their personal value and principle to deal with, it's not an easy process to start with.  Some decisions have to be made in an instance of moment, it's just required us to do it less in one second, such as those we do when we are driving our cars.  A slight missed will cause danger to us or people around us.  It's just a natural thing that we have to decide upon, but yet it's still another choice to be made.

For bigger matter like what I have for lunch, which road I should take to get home or others, it requires us to think exact of what we really want, but it still does not require overnight contemplation, because the time will definitely pass us by if we don't make the decision.  The next phase will be much bigger one, such as those which require us to contemplate it overnight or possibly for a period of times.  The major thing for me was whether I should go to somewhere which require me to put extra effort financial wise.  I don't mind short distance trip which does not cost me as much, but when it will affect my financial status and bank balance, I have to rethink million times over.  Each person has their own perspective in this regards.

Visiting my family back home is another trouble, it's not like they live few miles away from me.  I have to fly there and it will take me approximately one whole day before I can reach there, though it was not that much in term of the distances in kms, but considering the waiting times and transportation wise, it's still a bit much in my own calculation.  The next problem was of course the flight ticket.  In this era where we enjoy the benefit of airlines competition, we might get a very good deal, but comparing the distance taken and the cost, it does not make any sense for me.  I bought a ticket to Japan and the cost to fly back home is the same, it still does not make any sense.  My home is much shorter distance than Japan, why does it cost so much?

The next dilemma was the place I have to live next, it's not an easy one either, I just don't want to make a wrong choice where I have to share my life with (not exactly) for the next few years.  I put up with my current housemate in her up and down, and it was not easy at all.  I will be totally happy if she can maintain her own state of psychology, but it does not happen that often.  One day she can be all smiley and happy and the next day she can be totally an * (i really don't want to say it).  Living together with her for the past 2 years was not easy, I went through this dilemma whether I should say hi or just shut myself in the room when she came back home.  The problem with me is I could not fake my own expression.  It is just naturally shown there and pretending to be nice is not an option for me. 

The plan was I am going to leave my current residency and move to a new unit with my other friend, though I am not sure whether I can live with her.  She is the person I am going to go to Japan with, so I suppose I have to deal with it.  I am not sure now, but lest I make my decision now, I can't really go on with anything and paying almost 1000 bucks just for one room and have to share with others are definitely a no-go for me.  However buying a new apartment for myself is out of my budget, especially when I have a car to pay off and my education loans.  O well, another choice to make.

I am glad that I made my decision for the master, at least I have decided after 3 years of finding which course I should go.  Though I will need to commit even more for this, which includes travelling up there once every semester.  It means that I have to take one week off work and head up there to attend intensive tutoring and lecturing sessions.  Again, I can't complain about it.

As much as I want to commit myself into something, it's all the priority and principles that I really consider as my own objectivity.  Sometimes I have to cross the line between to make sure everything will be okay.  However I am very quick in deciding something, it is just my nature that I have to take the opportunity, lest I want to let it slipped which I often do as well.  It's the combination of wisdom, personal confiction, principles and any other factors.  Sometimes we may need to be put into a spotlight where we need to consider other interests too.  Probably I am not into that stage where I have to do that. 

Further, I made the decision for not going to the trip I normally went for the past 3 years.  It is by all means that I can't really go, due to my own financial interest and I think it is enough for me to see.  Probably it's the consideration that I have to make in accordance to my mum's instruction, but well I think I have things to avoid too.  It's the time for others to taste it, I have passed it already.  It's another ground to try and some more I have master to deal with for next semester, so I have no annual leaves left by the end of my Japanese trip.  Unpaid leaves is not an option at all for me, I just started to catch up the traces I left behind from my unpaid leaves last year due to the same trip.  Do I blame to the trip again?  I should not!! After all, it was my own decision.

The conclusion will be "life is full of choices and decisions to be made in accordance to our wisdoms, principles, values, personal confictions and million others factors".  It's okay to make a wrong decision and live with it, as long as we don't make the same mistake again and again at the same matter.   It's no point of regretting things, we can't really turn back the clocks and it's only the experience we can catch the tails from.  So it's really no point to think and regret things, live with it and learn from it.